I thought....

I thought I had learned

I had changed

I was smarter, wiser

I thought

I thought it would be ok

I was ok

I was capable again

I thought

I thought it would be great

It was worth it

I was worthy

I thought

I thought I had learned

I could do it

I opened my heart

I was stupid!

I'm a slow learner

These last few months:

1. I've tried to write on this blog, but couldn't find the words

2. I have discovered that when my children are miserable, I become mute and numb

3. I know to never buy a car wash at the pump when filling up....I will ALWAYS lose the slip of paper with the code on it.

4. I am becoming my mother with constantly changing around the furniture

5. If my cat brings another animal into this house to slaughter, I might kill him!

6. Laundry sucks...a lot (I've always known that one)

7. My family is cheap

8. My ADD is B A D

9. When a baby falls asleep in your arms, it is heaven

10. Watching my girl with her photography makes me swell with pride and love

11. I'm starting to look really old

12. I love to read teen novels-I swear they're better than adult ones

13. It would be really nice to have a man in the house when it comes to catching the rat the cat brought in or cleaning up rabbit parts that all over the house (my cat is from hell)

14. Decapitated squirrels make me puke (evil cat)

15. Seeing hundreds of sea turtle shells destroyed on a Naples Beach this November made me cry

16. I'm not the great mom I used to be

17. David is a sock whore and Kaity is a purse, clothes and shoe whore

18. David is becoming his dad and it makes me really sad for him

19. Our new governor must be a sex addict, because he's going to screw every teacher in Florida with performance pay

20. If I get another animal, my children will shoot me